World of Wishes

What I want for you is this: I want the world for you. And I want you to find someone who is able to give that to you. Someone who gives you butterflies. Someone who will tell you your beautiful and for you to believe it. Someone who will hold your hand in front of his friends. A man who’s a gentleman. He’ll give you his jacket when it’s cold and he’ll always hold the door for you. Someone to dance with, or to watch the clouds with. Someone to go on adventures with. I want someone who will fight for you and who’s proud to say they love you. Someone you can tell your secrets to and makes all of your worries disappear. I want for you someone who knows what you’re going to say before you say it, what you like on your sandwich or what movie makes you cry, someone who really knows you.  Someone who makes you laugh, and who will hold you during a scary movie. Someone who will drive hours just to see you. Someone who will kiss you in the rain, or surprise you with flowers. I want you to have someone who will keep you warm at night, always kiss you goodnight, and will be there when you wake up each morning. Someone who bring you chicken noodle soup when you’re sick and rub your tummy when it hurts. He will never make you cry but when you do he’ll hold you until the tears stop falling. I want him to be the one that makes you wonder why you wasted your time on anyone else. I want it to feel like home when you’re in his arms. I want for you someone who will be your best friend until you’re old and wrinkly and will never break your heart. What I want for you is for you to be loved.

The Simplest Solution

You should be with the person who treats you right, who cares for you with no other motives, and above all, just makes you happy. Happiness is the key to life. If you can find someone who makes you happy, truly happy, and they make you a better person, then that’s who you should be with. It doesn’t matter what anyone else says or thinks. Your happiness is the most important thing over anything else. Because if you are happy, very little else matters.

Mindful of the Hopeless Actuality

All I can say is that it’s hard knowing what love feels like. I know what it feels like to be wanted and missed and cared for. I know what it feels like to be held, to really be held. I know the laughs in between kisses, the wiping away my tears, the good mornings and sleep tights. I know what it’s like to feel like the only girl in the room. It’s hard to know what love feels like because then you know what isn’t love. And you know when he doesn’t love you.

Ninety Seconds and Counting

I know happiness. I’m not talking about the kind of happiness where you’re content with your life, or you’re in a good mood. I’m talking about natural unadulterated happiness. I know the feeling of having your heart be filled with an indescribable warmth and your mind is in a state of liberating wonder.  This energy’s complexity untwists and untangles itself into the simplest sensation you’ll ever feel. I would describe it as a kind of spiritual element, basic and pure. It can’t be found when searched for, it can’t be created. This happiness is encountered in the simplest of moments.

 A moment is said to be ninety seconds, a short period of time and it’s gone before we realize it happened. But this moment is different because time disappears, and with astonishing clarity you can see the moment is happening. It’s as if you’ve been lifted out of your body and you fill the air, being swayed and caressed by the movement of the moment. And while you’re watching yourself, that’s when it finds you and permeates throughout your soul. And you undoubtedly know that what has enveloped is pure happiness. You realize the joy and bliss that fills the atmosphere around you. Nothing can touch you, nothing can touch the moment you’re in. If you could you’d stay in this moment forever but as we know moments are fleeting. So you have to settle for being able to reminisce with the memory with as much detail as possible. And so you try to take in everything around you, you want to remember the smell and how the air feels on your skin, you want to be able to recount every motion, every piece of this moment.

 You don’t realize when the moment ends, it sneaks away just as it came. To me these moments are one of the most beautiful parts of life. They’re the thread that stiches together our hope, they’re the glue that fixes the cracks in our faith, they’re the missing puzzle piece that you find under the couch.  The happiness I’ve discovered in these moments, it’s my favorite thing that I know.